I have been wearing full face makeup since I was 14. My mother didn’t wear makeup, but one of my dad’s ex wives was a Merle Norman, Avon and Mary Kay sales person. I was in a weird space where I was a tom boy as a kid, but as I became a teenager, I wanted to grow up and makeup was my way of embracing some sort of femininity. I say that to say, I have been wearing makeup a VERY long time!
For years, a full face of makeup made me feel pretty. I was hiding behind the makeup. Swimming in insecurities, crippled with lack of confidence and no idea of who I was; makeup was the mask that disguised how I truly felt about myself.
As I’ve gotten older, and gained confidence I became less and less dependent of that makeup to express myself and connect with my feminine energy. I have shed that insecurity and embraced who I am as a woman, a curvy and aging Queen. Truth be told, it’s FREEING to be in a space where I am comfortable with or without makeup.
Another reason I’ve been wearing less makeup is the better health of my skin. I have to admit that aside from drinking water, eating healthier and other contributions; not wearing makeup keeps my skin so much clearer and looking good! To be 50 and have the skin that I have, is such a blessing and I will do anything to preserve that youthful appearance as long as I can!
The most influential person in my decision to stop wearing makeup is my partner. He has expressed since the very beginning of our friendship how much he adores me without makeup. Truthfully, that has had such a positive impact on my self esteem and confidence! I always thought my lover would want a full face of makeup, glammed up to “pretty perfection” but that just isn’t the case. I owe him a huge thanks for helping me reach a point in my life where I can feel comfortable without makeup.
Ultimately, staying true to myself and my content is what matters most. Knowing that my fans appreciate and embrace my natural face reaffirms that I’m exactly where I need to be. And at the end of the day, that’s what this journey is all about.
